I Meditate - It's Good For My Head
Rather than the 4.30am birds twittering to wake me, it was my husband's phone vibrating to announce he'd received a new 'tweet'
So I came down and meditated in my corner, wrote my affirmations and 'morning pages' and this fell out my head -
Under my blanket
I sit in stillness, finding the space and silence between busy thoughts
A buzz, a whirr, a cheep, a humm, a motor
And now images of friends in my head
I allow them to pass through
They come back they want to engage,
So gently I nudge them away
'Friends I'm meditating and can't connect right now'
Oh no they are back, they are very persistent
'Hello, that's it move along just GO, Shoo!'
For a bit
1,2,3,4,5, back aches
I notice the tip of my nose and count here
Because I read this was good to do.
25, 26, 27, 28
26, 27, 28
I think I already counted these ones
Now an itch
Back to my nose
Even if it takes 1000 times come back to your breath says Jon Kabat Zinn
What a wise man
OK good I'm back
42, 42, 44,45. 99, 100.
1000 ready or not
46, 47, 48, 49
Might have a boiled egg after this
Oh hello again thoughts
I'm meditating, yes I'm a Meditator don't you know this is what I do
It's good for my head
That's it done.
NB Despite this being a very typical meditation for me for up to an hour, when I don't do it I don't feel so full of energy, bounce, joy, playfulness, love and optimism. Days I don't do it I get more overwhelmed, stressed and reactive.
So on balance I feel it must be doing something. I miss it when I don't!